Monday, February 06, 2006
i cried. i'm jus used to having him ard. and, i nv realise i really like him till i lost him.
he feels one sided. i'm in the wrong liao. such a waste.
but too bad he wont recover lost love, i don neither. but then, if it's one sided, it's jus too waste.
he said maybe there's other reasons. but i don have the strength to ask much further.
tonight, it was raining. and the memories jus come. christmas eve night, it was raining like hell, we were in the rain. he said die liao now my laopo sure sick. and he took off his clothes jus to shelter me. he noes i'm tired, he offered to piggyback me to the mrt station. he says he feels heartache cos i'm drenched. worried that i'm sick and feels sorry.
he's a good guy. but i lost him becos i'm afraid to commit. why am i so idiot???
if i had listen to jerome and esther last time, to talk on the phone, call him, maybe it wont end up this way. why do i care for my face so much????
i really feel like slapping myself. hard on the face.
good things must come to an end. there are no regrets in life, jus lessons. lessons which are painful and leaves a deep scar behind. a scar, which will be there forever.
it will be hard to forget him. really. as i've said, you can't forget, cos memories are there, becos it happened.
That's me. at 1:18 AM