Tuesday, October 17, 2006
i hate u. i don even know when it started.
u're everywhere. i told myself to refrain contact.
but it seems like i'm reluctant.
ocean current sets former adrift.
oblivious of ur feelings, behaviour, i noe u will quit.
promised it's not now or anytime later, but it's nv a promise of nv.
good old days, i don care. as long as i have u here, everything is alright.
but now, i'm in shambles. fretted whenever promise made.
it's like a mysterious pang of dejection. no aching, but definitely doesnt feel good.
i've teared and dried, promised myself to stop being feeble. get myself up and jus be me.
i've long promised myself not to drop a tear.
at least if i do, i'll jus runaway. flee. acknowledge defeat.
but what have i done so far?
the ability of making hard decisions somehow is lost to me. a complete flop.
what should i do? i loathe myself for loving u. but i cant stop myself from anything.
nobody is strong afterall.
That's me. at 1:15 AM