Tuesday, November 14, 2006
i'm back after days of m.i.a. din went online and din check mails. miss me? =)
somehow stopped myself from using com so that i can do my tutorials and study for tests, but it seems furtile. ended up slping, watching tv and walking up and down the hse. -.- too many distractions ard... even when i wanted to start, open my book, find myself a spoilt mechanical pencil and start - repairing pencil... my concentration level is -under repair-
in short, i did studied. but compared to the times i slacked, it's redundant. and then i figured i cant stay home and study, so went mac. prevent any possible distractions to occur. and it worked! hehe. so let's go out study!!!
i din realise i am really so pia until christina mentioned a point. it is so true.
when u got high results, u don want to go down again. even when u got urself a B, it's disappointing enough to make u depress. becos deep down, u noe very well a B will pull all ur efforts down into the drain. now i finally understand why people up there is making so hardworking. maintaining is more impt than improving, the disappointment is too much for u to handle. u no longer accept failure.
jus like climbing the mountains. it's extremely tedious and difficult to climb up. u will tend to think of giving up or even if u fail is ok. since u din make much effort either. but when sudd, u gotten up, the beautiful scenery, the satisfied moments, u don wan to go down anymore, even though the air is hard to breathe up there and u are gasping for breath. the sacrifice u had made.
That's me. at 12:06 AM