Tuesday, July 22, 2008
it's been a while since. starting school soon thus quit my job and had been meddling with the school fees and hostel stuffs. well well, after i start sch, i guess i will have alot lesser time with him. esp after today. at least we did fully enjoy ourselves everytime we meet. swim in the rain, hide under shelter, changi nasi lemak, tuesdays' gelare, and etc etc.
was out. out meeting ex-colleague for lunch and some shopping. time flies when ppl are having fun and without realising it's 2pm already. why havent he msg? it's weird but perhaps he went straight for swimming. though it's rather impossible since the SI test start at 7pm. never mind, i'll just cont to reassure myself.
it's 4pm already. where is he? wad's gg on? never mind i'll just get home and give him a call.
5pm: incoming call from an unknown number. it's him! but why? "i'm in the hospital. well, accident." stoned. completely. heart sank and my mind went blank. i insisted on going over but have to wait for lifen to finish searching for her slippers since she's bringing me there. mind is in a mess. either empty or in whirl. this is bad. real bad.
finally there. seeing him in unbearable pain pains me. he teared. the first time i see his soft side. and the reason: "i cant imagine if you were there with me. i'll guilt for life." he actually teared becos he cant imagine me in an accident. and the moment he got into the accident and seen his bike in ruins, his first thought was shit how is he gg to meet me tmr? shit we cant spent the last week together. only after he sees the pool of blood, did he realise how serious the accident was.
he said i was his priority and that he was sorry that today my mood sank becos of him. sorry becos he couldnt keep his promise that i will never be sad while i'm with him. i'm touched and at that point, i dont really mind him saying mrs koh. usually mrs disgust me.
before i went off, i see him being sent off to the operating theatre. to remove a fragment of his ankle bone. shattered. i wonder how's he. the surgery should be long done by now. hope he's fine.
faith in healing.
That's me. at 11:04 PM